It's a new day...a blank canvas!
Let's paint on it something beautiful like a smile. Let's add to it plenty of sunshine and some laughter. Let's also add to this work of art lots of patience, for we all know that good things come to those who wait. Dab some excitement and adventure to spice things up. Throw in a kiss or two and some understanding.
Most importantly, let's color it with Love...after all, it makes the world go round.
Here's to a beautiful new day....another beginning.
xoxoMiss Sandra
This evening was yet another perfect one for dining outdoors. I made myself a simple dish, poured some wine into a goblet, and went out to my garden.
The breeze felt divine as I savored the moment of being outdoors in nature with birds, chirping away, as my only company.
Funny how one can embrace being alone, for sometimes it does becomes habit. However, this evening found me feeling the loneliness. I sat there, with life and beauty surrounding me....eating alone. I thought of how my husband, had he lived, would be sitting beside me discussing the day's events. I feel his absence on a daily basis, but very much so tonight. I guess perhaps the beauty of the day reminded me of the beauty of my yesterdays with Ron. They were lovely days.
The loneliness was so thick...still is...I can cut it with a knife.
I don't know why I posted this here, when most of time I'm my ever cheerful self...probably just the need to share my feelings. Besides, writing about it is a form of release and therapy.
Please...it's not to garner sympathy or anything of the like. I'll be fine and this too shall pass.
I guess I just wanted the company and you have all been so wonderful. Thank you for always dropping by and reminding me that there is a world out there with so many beautiful individuals.
I need not feel alone.
xoxo
Miss Sandra
It's a rainy and windy evening and I'm once again in a reflective mood.
As I hustled and bustled at my place of business today, I had this constant feeling of restlessness. It didn't matter that I was taking phone calls, packing orders, and chatting with customers. That feeling lingered and somewhere in the back of my mind, I heard it....that inner voice asking me over and over..."Is this all there is?" I know that question very well for I have spoken it aloud many a time. However, it was quite prevalent in my mind today. I thought to myself. No, this cannot be all there is. There is so much more out there waiting to be discovered. The life I've been dreaming of...it's out there. It's reaching out to me, beckoning to grab it and take it by storm. Oh it's there all right. I can feel it sometimes...the dream, the hopes, and the reality of it coming true.
Well, that reality is lovely, but it's not mine at present....or is it??
At this moment I must continue to keep shop, day in and day ou
t. I must save my pennies and keep strong of spirit and heart, for I've realized that in order to live the beautiful life of my dreams all I have to do is make beautiful my life now. And as I look around me, I see so much beauty, so much to be thankful about. I have the home of my dreams, the cat of my heart, family & friends in abundance, and the blessings of the sun in the morning and the moon at night. In this life, I can dress up and live another era one night, be in my Wellies out in the garden the next day, and have friends over for afternoon tea the next. The peonies are about to bloom, the linden tree is exuding it's sweet euphoric scent, my lavender is promising another year of fabulous growth and I was able to make another mortgage payment on this wonderful home I call my refuge, my sanctuary, and my Shangri-la. *smiles*
I'm out to work in the modern world by day, but have the wonder of coming home to Harmonie House...where it's always 1918. It seems all this time I've been searching for what I have already created for myself one day at a time...lovingly and patiently....bit by bit.
I found it......
A Beautiful Life.xoxo
Miss Sandra
