When my world crumbled, back on March 4th, 2008, I had to accept the fact that my life would have to change..I'd have to start all over again. During that time of sadness, confusion, and just plain disillusion, I lost myself to music. Music became the words of my soul, and the background to my everyday life. When I was angry, I found angry music to sing to...when I was hopeful, I found songs that lifted my spirit. There was one title of a song that spoke of hope that life wouldn't always be so somber and hopeless. That one title spoke volumes.."The Best Is Yet To Come." I spoke those words to myself over and over as my mantra. I thought to myself, behind every dark cloud lies the sun..waiting to come out and brighten the world. So indeed I would keep myself hopeful, for I knew the best was yet to come for me... I thought I would share this video of Peggy Lee singing the words to such an uplifting title. Enjoy My Dears!
I do hope you have all been having a most wonderful summer. I've been keeping busy and sometimes pleasantly so.
Today I'm having one of those days when I become philosophical about "my" life in general. I've learned so much this past year, my first one as a widow. I've had some good times and some bad times. I made new discoveries and many mistakes. Mind you all..I have learned from my mistakes....at least I hope so.
I've learned that though I am relatively a nice woman...very loving, giving, supportive, etc...I also have a very "not nice" side to me. Oh don't worry my dears...that side only comes out when my ire is raised. I never knew how much till this past year.
I guess because I've always been treated like, as some would say "a princess" (no, I'm not spoiled)...being loved, respected, admired, etc.. I'm not used to being insulted, or being made to feel less-than and such. Perhaps these things have not been directed at me intentionally, but they have hit their mark. Needless to say...the wicked witch of the west makes a fine entrance during these times. She pushes out the good girl..and brings in the "I don't care..you can go to straight to H*LL" persona out of me. Unfortunately...the witch wins out...if only for a while. She makes me cynical...she makes me question people and their intentions...she's a bitch. Pardon the language coming from Lady Harmonie....but that's just the wicked witch speaking. Okay..out with the "bad" me!! I have resolved to carry an invisible sifter. This way I can sift out all the bad that gets into my life. I shall sift the bad emotions, and I shall even sift out the people who have made me feel badly. I must be surrounded only by those feelings and people who bring out the best in me. I want to believe in the kindness of strangers, I want to believe that not everyone will be a fair weather friend....only there when they need me, but not vice-versa.
I shall keep this sifter in hand and before the wicked witch comes through...I'm gonna crank that handle and make powder out of her and the situation. You just wait and see!
On that note, I send hugs and kisses to you my dear blog land friends. I've missed you but am happy to say I am back. I hope to fill you in on lots of good things as time goes by. I love sharing my thoughts with you all, for you have shown me that one can make new and wonderful friends even if they never meet!
